Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Birthday Girl ~ Part 1
It's barely 5 am, I've been awake for over an hour now. So many things are running through my mind on this, my 44th birthday. I always consider this my "new year" instead of the traditional 1st of January, so I tend to do a lot of soul searching and pondering about my life.
Right now I'm wondering if my mom will even remember what today is. She's so distracted and forgetful, doctors say that's a result of the medication she's on. Without her to remind him, will my dad forget as well? I mean, of course I understand, they have bigger things going on right now, but still...the little girl in me still wants a birthday greeting from her Mommy.
I'm also thinking about changes I want to make in the coming year and of course I'll be sharing/boring those with you all here. *grin*
First up, I want & need to reconnect with the creative/crafty/artsy part of me that's been on the back burner for several years now. Before my divorce, when I worked from home, I spent quite a bit of time crafting and found it very rewarding and therapeutic. I crocheted, made soap and bath salts, dabbled in decoupage and paper crafts, etc. etc. Somehow over the years I've put aside that hobby, seems there was no time for it. But I miss it, I need to get those creative juices flowing again and reconnect to that part of myself. So, Beren and I had a discussion and made a decision to help get the ball rolling.
As much as I hate to admit it, Beren's girls are spending less and less time with us. They are young teenagers and therefore very involved in friends activities in their hometown which is over an hour north of us. As a result, we are often swapping weekends or shortening them in order to accommodate their social activities. Their time here has been narrowed down to approximately one night every two weeks, far from the 4-5 nights they used to spend here. We balked at first but honestly there's nothing we can do about it, it's a normal progression. So, here we sit, with this beautiful empty bedroom that we decorated for them; they don't even use the closet or drawers anymore, just bring what they need for the weekend and pack it all up again when they leave. It seems a waste of space, frankly, and after talking it over with Beren he suggested that I make some changes, utilize that area in a more productive way.
What I decided to do, for now, is to leave their beds and decorations exactly as they are but "claim" an area of the room for myself. So I ventured into the corner of my laundry room which stores my long-neglected craft supplies and started cleaning. I can't believe I am sharing this with you all but, here goes. This is what it looked like before:
I told you it was a mess! Now, in my defense, I do have other artists in the family who are happy to tear through my supplies and leave the area in complete disarray, but I digress..
And this is what it looks like now, about halfway done. I moved their dresser into the closet, sorted out the supplies and labeled the drawers. The tv and dvd player will be relocated to the corner, hanging from the wall, giving me the top of the dresser to use as well. I covered the old desk with bright sunflower contact paper to make it more cheerful, figure that they can also make use of it for homework, etc. when they are here.
It's still a work in progress but I'm off to a really good start! I can't wait to sit down and start a new project; that just might require a birthday trip to the craft store..hmm....wink...
Also, I'm going to get serious about my fitness plan, need to get this body back into shape so that it'll be gorgeous and healthy for many years to come! I re-opened my other blog, In Pursuit of My Inner Pin-Up, where I'll be writing more in detail about such things, so keep an eye out for that in the near future.
The sun is up, time to get dressed and off to work. I'm meeting Kali for lunch, am really looking forward to that, will post more later!
the Birthday Girl!