Monday, June 1, 2009

I am Not Crazy..Am I?

Taking a Time Out - You Are Not Crazy

Most of us feel a little crazy from time to time. Periods of high stress can make us feel like we’re losing it, as can being surrounded by people whose values are very different from our own. Losing a significant relationship and moving into a new life situation are other events that can cause us to feel off kilter. Circumstances like these recur in our lives, and they naturally affect our mental stability. The symptoms of our state of mind can range from having no recollection of putting our car keys where we eventually find them, to wondering if we’re seeing things clearly when everyone around us seems to be in denial of what’s going on right in front of their eyes. For most of us, the key to survival at times like these is to step back, take a deep breath, and regain our composure. Then we can decide what course of action to take.

Sometimes a time-out does the trick. We take a day off from whatever is making us feel crazy and, like magic, we feel in our right mind again.

Today's Daily Om is eerily appropriate as this is exactly how I've been feeling lately. In addition to Mom's death I've had some other drama brewing in my life for the past 3 months, it finally boiled over this past Friday and while it turned out mostly positive, I'm still mopping up some of the mess that it caused. I'm feeling a little bit crazy, a tad unstable, and still rather angry. Uncomfortable with those feelings longterm, I really need a break, a new attitude, a change of scenery, something, anything so that I can move on.

Beren has a 2-day meeting in Palm Beach, just over an hour from here, so I took today and tomorrow off from work in order to tag along. Even though we just returned from a road trip, this convention is a yearly event and just happened to coincide with the aforementioned Mermaid night in Ft. Lauderdale, so off we go again! The waterfront hotel we're staying at is within walking distance of a mall and all that that entails and boasts of a lovely lakeside pool and spa. Beren has already headed north, I'll be following him this afternoon. I am hoping to check in and relax for a bit then join him for a nice dinner and soak in the jacuzzi, then tomorrow I'll perhaps do a bit of shopping and find somewhere to have a pedicure. Perhaps by Wednesday I'll be feeling relaxed, refreshed and a little less crazy. One can only hope.


linda said...

this was most helpful to read as I too have had these losses deaths, knock wood and thank God , but changes and loss just the same....thank you for reiterating these words for me and hop you had a grand time or are having a grand time ;)

jan said...

i am so fa-reakin' jealous. i want hotels and jacuzzis!!!

p.s. i've been feeling more than a little bit unhinged too. so i'm totally with you. getting away is the best remedy.

kim said...

Was that not soooo appropriate?!? I just made an appointment with a new doc to deal with stress.

Next time I go to see my folks in Florida, we must make time to get toether.

Rapunzel said...

Linda, change and loss is difficult at any "level," isn't it? I am glad this post helped. :)

Rapunzel said...

Jan, wish you were here! I'm meeting a friend for a girls only lunch on the way home!

Rapunzel said...

Kim, I would love that! Please let me know!!